Recap: I’m a woman with Bipolar 1 w/Psychotic traits. Usually this just means I hear random sounds in my left ear, like in the previous two posts about it.
I am currently undergoing a shift in my medication routine, and it’s caused my symptoms to come back for a short while. This has triggered my more frightening hallucinations. I call them “The Shadows.”
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The Shadows are forensic sketches of unidentified homicide victims, with a shadowy body attached to them. They don’t say anything to me. I sometimes know what they are already thinking, and can hear a garbled static in my head, but it’s not like there’s a conversation.
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Fortunately, while they are terrifying, they’re friendly. They don’t want to hurt me, and they don’t want me to hurt others. They mostly just linger in the corner, or lay down next to me.
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Sometimes I hear my keyboard tapping, so I assume they borrow my laptop from time to time. As long as they delete any scandalous Internet history, I’m cool with this.
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Unfortunately, they scream the Amber Alert sound, and then shift about. It’s fucking terrifying.
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I turn a corner, and they’re there. Staring. Screaming creepy alarms. I scream like a small child in response, and nearly fall over.
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One of these days, I’m gonna have a fucking heart attack, and I don’t think the shadows are corporeal enough to perform CPR or defibrillate me. I also can’t give them an eviction notice – they’re ghosts.
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I did take a moment to recreate the sheer terror on Gimp, to provide a visual AND auditory representation of the fucking shadows….
I’m going to put this in three images to ease you into it, starting with the faces. Then I’ll add the shadow bodies, and then I’ll add the sounds.
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That way you’re not bombarded by all three, and you can “NOPE” out of there when you feel like it’s too creepy, and still be able to sleep with the lights off.
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The shadows freak me out so much, I had to turn the volume to 2 to add the sound. I DO NOT like hearing that alarm sound. It ALWAYS sets me off. Even still, I wanted to provide a tangible representation of the shadows, because it sounds a absurd when trying to verbally explain it.
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But while *I* don’t have the choice to pick and choose which parts I can and can’t handle, YOU do. Hence why I’m doing this in three parts.
One quick side note: I tagged this as “memes,” because I have incorporated meme format into this post, but if you feel like it doesn’t belong, I can take it off.
Names in order of left to right: BACK ROW
1.) The boy in the box
2.) The one next to him doesn’t have a name, she’s just called “Jane Doe.” She’s an Asian woman that was recovered in 1985.
3.) Susean Knorr’s Jane Doe sketch before she was identified.
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FRONT ROW
1.) “John Doe,” no name to my knowledge.
2.) Lincoln County Jane Doe
3.) Little Miss Nobody
BE PREPARED. THIS IS NOT A PLEASANT SOUND.
EDIT: MY BAD, THE VIDEO DIDN’T LOAD WITH SOUND. Here’s a link to the video WITH sound: https://imgur.com/a/S1BRyXm
They’ll zoom in and out of focus, and sometimes have a shadowy haze around them. I wish they would wear actual clothes, instead of this creepy shadowy figure thingy.
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They could wear patterned pajamas, designer jeans, rabbit ears, just SOMETHING that isn’t “creepy shadowy killer” vibe.
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Though that begs a question – are the shadowy body figures their clothes? Or am I a victim of supernatural indecent exposure?
Cat tax to lighten the mood.
In 2016, my family and I rescued three feral kittens. One of them was pissed off at all of us for a week or so, and the other kitten was trying to l comfort her during that time. The third one fell asleep while sitting up lol.
My parents kept the hissy one, she’s named Lucy – and is now the sweetest thing ever.
The other two were adopted by my sister, and she named them “Wallace” and “Peter.”